I am finding myself in the midst of worry of "the unknown." And what frustrates me is that I should never be anxious. God has proven himself time and time again. He is Faithful! He is Sovereign! He has come through over and over again, always bringing a sense of peace in the middle of the storm.
For years I have struggled with anxiety and worry. This anxiety has manifested too big of a place in my life...a level that I could no longer control...a level where I had to seek help. And sadly, due to my seek of approval and perfection, my anxiety would shoot through the roof over the smallest triggers. Only through the grace of God did I overcome a majority of those constant anxieties caused by my trying to remain in control. I am daily learning to let go. I am replacing so many of those lies of the enemy with the truths of my sweet Father in heaven!
But, then the bigger things hit. The anxieties that come about by something more than the monotonous patterns from before. Can I trust him this time? What will happen if? How will I be able to handle this? What will this look like? How can I plan and prepare if this?
"Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own." Matthew 6:34
"Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding;in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight." Phil 3:5-6
See, If I can just TRUST Him with it ALL! If I can just REST in Him! RELAX in FAITH that He has got this one in control...which is WAY better than MY control! I need to remember all that He has done. When things seem like a dead end or the trial seems too hard, I pray that He gives me the strength to endure it and press on through it, only to make HIM victorious in the end! Because it is Never my victory but HIS!
I refuse to give up! I don't even think He would let me. And I fully believe that He is absolutely NOT done with this girl yet!!!
"Being confident of this, that he who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus." Phil 1:6
- Jaime
5 comments:
Amen! You just quoted all of my "usual" verses. :-) Some days I feel like I should have them tattooed all over me so I won't forget them. So great to hear those again today.
Hmmm... Tattoo... Sounds like a plan, Jaim!
It's interesting to see how many of us are going through some unknown right now. I have to keep reminding myself the same thing.
Cassie, you are a NUT! The Unknown will never be a Tattoo my friend! That is a KNOWN!!!
Jaime,
I feel your pain. Its tough to explain to others how crippling fear can be. Especially when it becomes a daily part of who you are. I will be praying for you.
Been there so many times...I should have the t-shirt!!! NO matter how hard I try - I never seem to be able to just turn it all over. I have to cling to something to "be concerned" about...BUT..through it all I know I serve an awesome God and He made me so he knows all about me. Even though He might prefer me to handle things differently - He is waiting patiently for me to get it...or to just come on home and live with Him forever. Love you girl...hang int here - and leave the tattoo thing on the table!!!!!
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