This too Shall Pass

Every blog post should begin with an eye-catching adorable child, right?

Well, here it is:

Goodness, look at the intense facial expression as Allison thanks Jesus for her "EAT!"

Okay, got the cute stuff out of the way.... Now, many of you (or at least I hope some of you) may have wondered where I've been (at least in Blogger world). Well, I have hinted for some time in previous posts that life has been a little hectic. Sparing you all the details of what our life looks like, let's just say it has been a weary couple of weeks....okay....months for me. And those little phrases like: "this too shall pass" or "tis only for a season" were really beginning to tick me off. I was ready for the season to be over and to start fresh with the new and better one! Over the course of this stress, I think I was pretending that I could handle it all on my own. WRONG! And soon enough, without realizing it, was slipping into a very unsatisfied state of mind. I was frustrated with how life was going. I couldn't DO it all and wanted to be able to do it...and do it well. So, I began believing those stupid lies again about myself and my self worth.

And I knew the truth.

What did I do about it?

NOTHING

I cried out to the Lord, not out of desperation, but complete irritation. I could feel Him trying to calm me and invite me to spend time with him. I thought I had good intentions to follow through, but would end up falling asleep because I was too tired...but not before reading a magazine or watching a little TMZ before dozing off. I have been here before and knew I was beginning to live in it again. I wasn't really angry at God. I was just TIRED. Ever felt that way...you know...tired, weary, complacent, or a little too comfortable and unmotivated?

Well, as usual, the Lord doesn't allow me to stay there forever....NOPE! He loves me way too much! But it wasn't easy. It took a night of completely falling apart. It's not like I couldn't see it coming. Trying to be Wonder Woman isn't an easy task (that's why she's not REAL...sorry Jordan)! I had to accept the Lord's invitation at that moment and get off my tushy and do something about it! A life of learning is more than sitting in church and listening to those moving messages and then doing nothing about it. You have to take action. Apply it. Pray it. Live it. And when you allow the Lord to do that work in you....Wow....life sure is more fulfilling! Easy? NO. Fulfilling? ABSOLUTELY!

Thank you Lord! You always bring me to the truth! I desire to be more attentive to the gentle whispers from you, as to avoid the deep pit and get that "not so gentle" message :)

So, why the paragraphs and no cute pictures today? Well, I really felt like the Lord is calling back to journaling more on my blog (which I have neglected for quite some time since getting rid of the old blog). And I like the accountability. I also want to share my story to show that I am not just a crafty, fun, cool mom with a perfect life, but I am a REAL person unlike Wonder Woman :) I actually do have a soul that hurts and needs healing from time to time. I know we all struggle from time to time and I want to share those moments so you don't have to feel alone.

So, about those phrases...yes, Jarrett's schooling will be over with soon, I won't always be stressed to the max with a 2 year old, and that debt will hopefully be less one day. But it's all okay!!!